Hey fam! Over the last 8 weeks I have filmed my diet on Youtube to track my goal of losing 10lbs. I started the vlogs at 145lbs in the first week of 2016. I wanted at least to get down to the 130’s but set my goal to be about 135lbs. I ended up getting to 140lbs, so I lost 5lbs, and 11 inches total!
I was not perfect these 8 weeks. In fact, I was far from it. These videos were an eye opening experience for me. Week by week reflecting on camera, then editing and hearing it again, it helped me put together the pieces on why I was struggling to stick with my macros. I’m burnt out from tracking. I desperately need a break…
I was consistently having 1-2 days a week where I wouldn’t go crazy and binge, but I had no desire to reach my macros. I never beat myself up about this. In the videos I’m very open and honest about my imperfect days and I accept them for that they are. This was huge for me as I’ve been really hard on myself in the past with dieting. I’m a very goal oriented person and when I make a goal I put my mind to reaching it, so I used to be very tough on myself when I didn’t. But when I gained back almost 50lbs extra during my pregnancy in 2014 I knew something had to change. The past 9 months of dieting postpartum I have lost 35lbs and I am proud to say that I have been very kind to myself during it. I have taken things at the pace that works for me and keeps a good balance in my life. Fitness isn’t my life, it’s just a part of it. Tracking macros isn’t my life, it’s just a part of it. And right now I need to take a step back from it.
I conclude these 8 week vlog’s with the decision to take a break from being at a deficit (aka cutting aka trying to lose weight). Instead I’m going to very loosely track around maintenance, practice intuitive eating more and more, and focus my training goals around getting stronger, especially in my erb’s palsy arm. I’ve recently started working with a coach who’s going to help me get my arm strength where it needs to be so I can dive in to the world of powerlifting. I’m so excited for this next chapter in my life! I feel like this is the beginning of something big. I’m grateful to you all for joining me on this journey and I hope from these videos I can inspire even one person to listen to their hearts, pursue their passions, and care for their body as well as their souls. Please don’t be afraid to move at the pace that works for you and don’t be discouraged if it’s slower than someone else’s.
I hope you continue to follow along as this next chapter unfolds.